I went and saw my surgeon yesterday and had an exam done.  Overall it went pretty well I suppose.  The doc did an x-ray of my chest to see the size of my lungs and then she did a blood test to see the blood levels in my liver.  Apparently, the blood test of the liver usually doesn't yield many results, but it should be done anyway because it's the best option we have for testing right now. 

The one downer of the appointment was when we were discussing my future.  I inquired about how cautious I need to be and if I need to be this cautious for the rest of my life.  She said I am a lot more likely to have the cancer come back in my 40s or 50s than I am now.  But if I continue to be as careful as I have been....then there is a possibility we can beat that chance.  

So that wasn't exactly what I wanted to hear.. but I'll take what I can get I suppose.

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Also, this past weekend I did my first ACS volunteer event in the community (with the exception of Relay for Life.)  It was quite different than I had expected.  I was under the impression I'd be dealing closely with a lot of cancer survivors or patients... whereas I was the only one and I was mainly being representative.  So in that aspect I was a bit embarrassed.  I don't pass judgement on others who have endured the ups and downs of the disease...but I hold a completely different standard for myself.  I suppose my distorted body image post treatment has a lot to do with it, but I'm just very ashamed.  I know I know... it sounds ridiculous, but the truth often does.  Anyways, next up is Relay for life in about three weeks and I'm soo excited for that.  Last year we got rained out and shut down early.  But this year you can count on me walkin all night baby!! ;)

As always... thanks for listening.  You guys are great!